it's all just a blackjack game

I'm starting to get really scared... looks like something's seriously wrong with me. I got into school around 9 am and found out we've a free cut for pe.. cool, i thought.. decided to go back home cause i forgot something, daan sa xavier, kita si joey and chill, then:

Joey: o naka-review ka na ba sa lit?
Me: di pa.. long exam namin sa chem ngayon eh
JOey: eh ano ba mas importante, lit o chem?
Me: (smile lang)
Chill: Chem..
All: wahahaha

lam nyo bat di ako nataranta? cause i didnt know na this day pala MIDTERMS sa Lit.. Kakatwa noh? I dont know bakit ang nakatatak sa utak ko eh sa friday pa midterms namin.. kakatwa talaga..

Aminin ko sa inyo guys, i really have problems with my pandinig.. problem talaga.. pero grabe its horribly affecting me and my studies..

Siguro sa buong ateneo ako lang nagkaganito.. imagine nyo, MIDTERMS di ko lam kung kelan until the scheduled date??? grabe.. pero wala lang amused lang sa sarili.. hehehe di naman objective yung test..
pero iba pa rin!!! wahahaha

But I'm ok now.. ive always been ok thank God.. basta im sure tomorrow Long TEst sa math and sa friday Midterms sa Math - 6-8pm..


perhaps one possible solution to my problems caused by pagkabingi or pagkamakalimutin is to always think of tomorrow as the scheduled date of the finals. (labo noh?) pero at least that way, prepared..

now im starting to feel what it's like to be in college.. i thought college was fun. imagine 3 to 4 subjects a day, with 2 to 3-hour breaks in between. but as they say, in college, how you spent your time outside class is just as important as how you spent your time inside.

we had our 2nd long exam in Math this afternoon, twas less difficult (not easier) than the first but i think my performance was still not enough.. tomorrow we have to submit a descriptive paper, which we are to prepare only today, friday's the deadline for another paper, this time for lit, and midterms in math..

im starting to feel really tired now, really stressed out.. sabi ko pa naman kay don i'll study like hell na.. pero kakayanin ko yan.. with God, kaya ko yan..

i read our daily bread everyday for the second year now and trust me, it has been really helpful in my everyday development as a God-fearing person.. the stories are true and the insights are presented in a manner that would seem so new to us.. read it guys, won't take much of your time..

we just had our midterms in math yesterday. whew! astig talaga ateneo. we reviewed several sample midterm exams, long tests from other professors, etc. i thought i already encountered all types of problems the math department could possibly give.. but after taking the test, wow, seems like ala rin mapapala pagre-review. ang galing talaga.. they always have something new to kill us with.. imagine 200 points but only nine items?

kanina i watched bombita.. saya.. enjoy pala watching a play alone. walang distorbo.. you can sit wherever you want.. tahimik lang, walang magulo.. astig ang entablado.. there was never a boring moment.. galing..

midterms in pinoy is on tuesday. isa pa yun.. astig.. open book daw.. pambihira.. mukhang essay type na naman ang test ha..

anyway, God has been so good to me this day.. masaya pa rin ako..

I went to UP kanina. met my friends.. alena, arjay, hazel, lady, ramilio.. the others weren't there.. keneth is in pangasinan, the others weren't dormers, i wasn't able to inform don, we have no contact with juanito.. ian told me he'd come pero di siya sumipot.

haaay... UP is so big.. my one and only dream school. never thought i'd land in a different school. hmmm.. iba talaga plans ni Lord. not that i didn't pass.. i did. i can still imagine the many what ifs. had i pursued my studies there, then i'd be one of the guys in kalayaan, roaming the campus when there are no classes.. i'd be taking up applied physics.. hehehe

i'm still not sure why alena made me go there.. maybe because we've no classes.. maybe because she's telling the truth when she said she misses me.. or maybe it's simply because she's celebrating something very important today and wants me to be a part of the kasiyahan... hahahaha... hey, alena sayang sinundo na ako kung kelan nagkausap na kayo..

i was reading Lightning by Dean Koontz.. still in the first part, but its similarity to From the Corner of His Eye is very evident.. Lightning is the second Dean Koontz book i'm reading now after really really loving the first one (from the corner). dean koontz's plots are usually about people who seemed really impossible to be interconnected but who's relationships to each other would prove to be oh-so-ordinary in the end.. so far, Lightning for me is quite sickening, very sad, makes me feel good about my present situation despite whatever undesirable it is i have right now. so far lang ha, can't tell pa. and anyway, a "sickening" book for me is not necessarily a bad one. sickening books for me are those that can really impart a universal truth (usually a sad one) in such an effective way..

okay, so i'm writing crap.. sorry ha.. hehehe.. sorry guys, can't believe i'm writing about books.. hehe.. maybe next time about my crush naman.. haha

classes in ateneo were suspended due (i think) to baha in katipunan and traffic na rin?? hehe.. grabe i was stranded kanina.. walang masakyang tricycle, di makalapit sa overpass cause talagang malalim na ang tubig.. lakas ng ulan.. my first class was PE 9-10am.. while waiting for a trike i met a classmate in filipino, grabe mas bad trip sya.. midterms niya sa physics 730, 9 na ala pa sya.. hehe..

paper bag ko nasira.. decided to go to kodak to have a picture (read important picture as in supposed-to-be-submitted-today) developed but its closed pa.. lakas ng ulan kung alam niyo lang

buti na lang suspended classes kasi:
1. i still have time to have the picture developed
2. i don't have my assignment for eng
3. i havent reviewed for my chem quiz

JEEPNEY
Erwin Tiongson

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i missed fluid.. yesterday's its last showing, we've got a community service in las pinas. missed the extra paper. for a subject whose midterms you screwed, missing out on bonus points is such a big deal.. oh well, three more plays to go.. don, when are you watching lysistrata? can't afford to miss that one na.. UP people, who else are watching lysistrata? my prof's gonna be there.. i think she's the bida.. oh well, di ko pa naman napapanood..

naku-culture shock ako dito.. for reasons i dont want to post.. but its not as bad as you might think.. la lang.. hehe.. yah.. miss you guys.. miss the kind of fun we're used to.. miss thomas' frank jokes/insults.. miss don and jp's kalandian.. miss ian hope's kaingayan (galit sa mga bakla't maiingay mga tao dito).. miss alena and julie's trustworthiness.. haha.. miss dominic's kwento.. miss ramilio and john's chismis.. miss ryan and marc's corny jokes.. miss mam doria.. miss you guys..

my mom didnt appreciate the movie.. hehe.. but i like it.. chose it over princess diaries 2. the story may be super unbelievable and everything, but i believe that was a perfect way of conveying the movie's central message..

i wasnt really a fan of feminism.. there's the part of me that sees stepford as "just right".. of course, i believe that women should never be inferior to men, etc.. but for women to overpower men, as in OVERpower, well, its not too normal for me.. i just didnt grow up with that kind of culture: you know, women as breadwinners of the family, children fearing their moms more than they fear their dads.. etc.

that was the first movie i saw with nicole kidman on the lead.. grabe.. she's a really good actress pala talaga.. i didnt see her movies but if i had it right, her role for which she won an Oscar was a very different one from her role here.. galing..

last say: if ever i'll be married to a man who's not as smart as i am (ohh.. super crap!!) and who doesn't make as much money as i do (sige asa), ill make it sure that he'll still be the "padre de pamilya".. hehe.. yikes!! super kadiri mga ideas ko noh??

anyway, i know a lot of you wouldnt agree with this (maraming feminist sa 4-A) but... oh well, this is my site.. laban kayo? hahaha