it's all just a blackjack game

yah i bought one with the glossy pages... i guess they're the only ones available in orp...oh well.. maybe i'm the only one whining about the price..

my first day of classes went well.. i'm just nervous (probably like everyone else) about financial accounting.. and math.. ang walang katapusang math.. hmm... pe ko pala, table tennis. takot na ako baka pagtawanan ako ng mga tao... i don't know what to expect from theo except that one friend i know was required to buy a new american bible, 1991 edition... hmm...

had lunch with a couple of fellow shiftees before joining amy and stacy. tagal ko rin di nakita si stacy... and joey slimmed down, really good for her.. nagulat din ako kay ann, ang ganda na rin... hahahha...

and then went to math 21.. dami namin.. 30+.. kakapanibago kasi 15 lang kami sa math ko nung summer... heheh... kasama ata namin mga ece people eh... hmm... beadle si kc!!! di ko pa pala nasasabi ka kanya tong blog ko.. parang gusto ko paalam.. malamang di nyo pa sya kilala... la lang.. new friend.. fellow shiftee.. but that's not our only bond.. bisaya din sya.. yah, i have a couple of new friends, both bisaya.. si kc tapos si rom.. astig kasi pag nag-uusap kami, bisaya... ayan, mapa-practice na ulit ang bisaya ko!!!

i really want to learn lots of dialects (and languages na rin, pero gusto ko yung sa pilipinas muna).. medyo marunong ako mag-pangasinan (oh diba? mas matagal ako sa pang. kesa sa mindanao, pero mas marunong ako mag-bisaya... sa bagay, kinalakihan ko talaga mindanao eh..) pero gusto ko pa maging mas fluent.. tapos pag marunong na ako, isusunod ko talaga ilocano!!! whahahahhaha.... sobrang gusto ko matuto mag-ilocano...hmmm...ewan bakit..

gusto ko rin sana karirin ang japanese kaya lang nawalan ako ng gana after lumabas yung grades ko... eto share ko lang... ewan kung nakarinig na kayo ng kwentong mas masaklap rito: diba nga summer ako nag-jap? siguro bandang kalahati ng summer, ang standing ko sa japanese, A!!! magtakin mo, A!!! tapos, pre-final grade ko naging C+!!!! sad na ba? etong mas sad!! after finals, grade ko C na... layo diba?? mula A na na-maintain mo for a half or more of your time taking the course, tapos naging C!!!! lam nyo, i blamed a lot of things... kung bakit pa kasi pinalitan ni sir yung style nya ng pagq-quiz... pati yung mga "more demanding" subjects(itm 14 at math), sinisi ko rin... biruin mo naman kasi... magfa-finals na sa japanese, anong ginagawa ko?? gumagawa ng itm project sa starbucks hanggang 2am... consider na rin yung pagkamatay ng lola ko.. ang pabalik-balik na byahe sa pangasinan kung kelan hell week of the hell month na...

hayyy.... pero tapos na yun... at tulad ng laging nangyayari, move on ulit ako.. lagi naman ako ganyan eh.. move on lang lagi... so bakit ko pa kinwento yun for all of you to read?? ala lang... palusot lang dun sa C ko... kung iisipin mo, yung mga reasons ko, parang ala lang naman diba? heheheheh... ganyan naman tayo diba? pag may bagsak, pag mababang nakuha, pag natalo sa contest, lagi naman may dahilan diba?? hayyy.... pero siguro, filler lang din... ayoko ng maikling post eh, lalo pa't di ako nakapag-update for more than half a month... or almost a month nga ata...

kaya kung napagtiisan mong basahin to hanggang sa katapusan, sorry, walang kwento lahat ng sinulat ko... pero lahat ng iyon, galing sa puso... yuck, yuck, yuck!!! ano nangyayari sa 'kin???? sige na nga....

bye bye na... love you all!!!!

special thanks to alena... lam mo na 'yun...

wow, tagalog entry... very fil 12...

it's amazing how a single phone call can change the course of one's day.. it's been so long since i had a nice conversation with a long-time friend. all the ones i'm currently in contact with are new friends. not that i have a problem with that... it's just...different with those you've known for years..

so.. i'm in ctc right now.. no more class for the day!!! i'm free from 1030 onwards every mwf.. that's supposed to be nice except that i really hate having to wake up at 5:45 in the morning for a 730 class.. hmmm...

now that class has started (two weeks na actually), you can expect me to be updating this blog more frequently than last summer.. you see, school is the only life i have.. loser... joke...heheh.. but i don't know.. trust me, it's starting to be busy na.. whaaahhh...

we heard mass in UP yesterday and we saw keneth on our way out.. she's alone.. turned out she's in teacher's village na.. turned out lam ko na before nya pa sabihin.. she asked me how i knew.. i said don told me.. now she wonders how don knew.. ang galing ng chismis noh? hmm.. so bakit sya umalis sa molave? gusto ko sana ikwento but i dont know if keneth would like it.. and besides, this blog is all about me... heheheh...

there's something i BADLY wanted... but i didn't have it... oh well...

last friday, kc accompanied me to dsws...

emily: (tatawa-tawa at pangiti-ngiti muna)

dsws girl: yes?

emily: uhm.. dito po ba magbabayad for locker?

dsws: ah hindi... sa cashier...

emily: ahhhhhh... OWKEY

kc: alam mo bakit sa cashier??

emily: bakit??

kc: kasi CASHIER eh!!!!!

kc ulit: from the word CASH!!!

haaaayy.. last friday yun.. ngayon, nakabayad na ako... sa cashier ha!! the only problem that remains is where and how do i line up my locker building??? *clueless*

kaya ikaw

don't play stupid with me...

i'm better at it...

i'll be having my first long test in math 21 tomorrow... i'm glad to say i'm not cramming.. not that i'm over prepared (we all hate to say we are) but i guess i'm prepared enough.. though i really can't tell cause i have no idea how ms. ang gives exams...

i've been rereading the Purpose-Driven Life and the topic for this day is so tugma.. it's about sacrifice as the heart of worship... and now i'm applying it.. i'm sacrificing my own will for that of God.. basta nag-aral na ako for math.. if God wants me to ace it, then please Lord, make me ace it.. but if it's for Your greater glory that i get something which would "normally" be unacceptable for me, make me accept it and thank You for it..

the concept of "surrender" is something i find really really scary. you see, i had my whole life planned.. at least something to that effect, para di exagg.. and to give up my dreams and ambitions to God?? i haven't really thought about it until these days... what if God does not want me to live the (more) comfortable life i have always envisioned? what if God wants me to be a missionary to some african country instead of being a corporate executive?? what if God does not want me to have my first house at 25? what if God does not want me to find that smart and respectable man i've always wanted? what if God does not want me to marry?? what if God wants me to fail tomorrow's long test?!!!! no!!!!!!!

these are all scary for someone who used to be so in control of herself... and now she decided to give up control of her life.. pero umpisa lang to... God, help me come to terms with this... haaayyy...

and by the way, sabi dun sa book, you make God smile when you talk about Him..