it's all just a blackjack game

is a million-headed monster and it's out to kill me.. as i was telling kc, if this were a physical struggle, comatose na ako.. whahahhah...

now, i actually like accounting.. i'm not the kind of student who hates a subject just because i get bad grades at it. anyway, management accounting per se is quite easy. madaling intindihin, makinig ka lang sa teacher, magbasa ka lang ng libro, etc. the sample exams are kinda ok too.. easier than those from acc 20..

ang di ko lang ma-gets, bakit pagdating ng mismong exam namin, ibang ibang iba na!!! it's so frustrating!! ang i'm so barely passing!! my standing's not even a high D!!! i'm entertaining the thought of failing, but just so i wouldn't.. gets? hahahahhahah... the 3rd long test was the hardest ever in my whole entire life.. and please Lord God, don't let my score be less than 40/100... sobrang di ko afford..

D.Y. gave me some kind of a charity recitation point kagabi (when we were having our 3-hour marathon make-up class) and i'm so grateful already.. di ko afford mag-zero sa recitation.. buti medyo ok ako kami sa game.. pero hello? forced ranking?? forced ranking?? oh well..

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anyway, i'm not gonna let all this stuff take away my sense of humor.. i don't really have a right to whine.. sorry, just needed to let this all out..

haaaayyy....

 

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i'm in ctc pala ngayon, waiting for my math class.. buti pa sa math, medyo rewarding.. sa accounting, parang di nagwo-work ang reinforcement eh.. mag-aral ka o hindi, same results.. oh well..

 

i can't let all these anxieties ruin my last long test.. make or break na to..

my life's fine, thank you.. hindi naman ako i-hate-my-life mode.. hahahha.. i would never forget the more important things, and thank God, ok naman ako sa mga aspetong yun..

 

I woke up at 7am but slept again because my alarm was intended to ring 730.. heheh..

so i dreamt i was in psych class where we go in front and thank everyone we want to thank.. hahah.. so high school. so i did that, and when i was done, someone sat in my seat, so i transfered to the very back.

when i looked at the window, we saw a trailer of the latest james bond movie (at least in my dream) starring colin farrell.. it's shot in iraq (and the actor playing the iraqi leader was so cute). 

before i knew it, i'm already part of the movie as a middle aged man imprisoned in what looked like a kitchen. i did escape, however, after stepping on a rat.. how? God knows.. weird, weird, weird!!!

and then i was no longer that man but more like myself! i'm out in the market now with my dad and brother. this time, we're iraqi citizens and my brother is so thin!! and guess what we're dealing with? Hyperinflation!!! wheheheheh... anyway, we're looking for slippers for my brother and slippers cost P100,000!!! (i can't understand why our currency's peso)

we did return to the "house" though and it's a good thing we found my blue slippers so he'd have something to wear....

 

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that was just weird... but i rarely remember my dreams vividly so i immediately wrote down the details..

 

so himay-himayin natin.. right now, i'm taking a break from all the exams.. bale pahinga muna.. the next exams would be on tuesday.. two subjects: psych and eco.. di pa ako nakakapag-aral sa psych.. so perhaps my dream was my brain's way of reminding me to start doing something. on the other hand, i'm getting kinda obsessed with eco, especially this inflation thing!! as in!! i rarely bring/read textbooks in my bed, but the other night, i did it with eco!! para syang naging pocketbook! at first i'm kinda desperate pa kasi nga B+ standing lang ako, eh eco's supposedly so easy lang.. pero while reading the text, sobrang naging interested na ako..

paggising ko, the first thing i thought was: wow, alam ko na ang buhay mahirap.. lolz!! hahahah.. pero di pa kasi matino pag-iisip ko pag bagong gising minsan eh.. now that i think about it, parang it was just one of those w-e-i-r-d dreams.. pero the minute talaga i woke up, parang grabe, scary!! P100,000 for slippers!! eh ang sinweldo lang daw ng dad ko mga P5,000 lang.. diba dapat pag super mahal ng prices, dahil sobrang daming pera sa circulation? eh sa dream ko, mahal ang prices, period.. yun na yun.. heheheh... kawawa naman kapatid ko.. ang payat pa daw nya dun!!

 

is just the sweetest word..

transmutation... transmutation... transmuted.. transmuted.. for the first time, transmuted... TRANSMUTED... curved...

God is listening...

person 1: ano ang ln?

person 2: logarithm to the base e

person 1: ano?

person 2: logarithm to the base e... alam mo yung e?

person 1: oo

person 2: ano?

person 1: energy...